Personal Affair: My Search for you, Boy!

Boy, ive been searching so long all my life

trying to find the love and the joy of my life

Places ive been, people ive known

Memories worth treasuring, yet some worth forgetting.

Boy, how will i know

If it's you i should trust my heart and life with

Have known you for some time now

yet you still made me confused big time.

Boy, how will i tell you

that i wanna keep you in my life forever

on the second thought, maybe i just wont admit

coz i'm scared that you will reject me.

Boy, i guess my happiness is with you

but deep inside i know i still can't find you.

You're just infront me standing

But you are keeping your distance as far as you can.

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I saw this thing i wrote back in September 2010. For i don't have any idea what is the reason why i ended up creating thing such as this, i am still thinking now what was my "inspiration". I am even asking myself who is this "boy" i am pertaining to. 

When i am in love, i sing a lot.

When i am sad and broken-hearted, i can come up with good sayings and poems.

When i am bored, i can think of weird stuff.

When i am single, i am blooming.

When i am in a relationship, they say i am stressed.

When i am bored, i lose weight.

When i am busy, i gain weight.

Crazy right? :)

Personal thought: Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve what you want

I saw this poem at a friend's wall. I find it very nice and again, the hopeless romantic me comes alive. 

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair; 
I hate the way you drive my car, I hate it when you stare.

 I hate your big dumb combat boots, 

And the way you read my mind. 

I hate you so much it makes me sick;

 It even makes me rhyme.

 I hate the way you're always right,

 I hate it when you lie,

 I hate it when you make me laugh;

 Even worse when you make me cry.

 I hate it that you're not around,

 And the fact that you didn't call.

 But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you; 

Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Love is passion. Obsession. Someone you can't live without. Someone you fall head over heels for. Find someone you can love like crazy, and will love you the same way back. Listen to your heart. No sense in life without this. To make the journey without falling deeply in love, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try, because if you haven't tried, then you haven't lived.